This is truth I share. Nothing more, nothing less.
At a young age of four, I was living in a shelter with my mom. We had no place to go. Soon after I was put in a foster home for two years after my mom left me on a stranger's doorstep one night and disappeared from my life. She believed in her heart, I would be taken care of… somehow, someway and all that she could ever give, all that she could ever do was already done.
At the age of six I was sexually molested by my foster father.
After living in a foster home for two years, my birth father regained custody of me after a couple of years. I began a new life with the only parent I had left- my dad. I was eight years old. As I grew up I had trouble trusting people in my life. I was bitter and hurt because of my past.
I didn’t understand the point of life, the meaning of love or happiness. I envied people that seemed to have it all in the eyes of the world. I didn’t understand why my mom had to disappear when I most needed her or why my life was filled with unanswered questions, pain and brokenness. I became filled with guilt and shame. I didn’t understand why things had to be the way they were.
I came to realized as I got older that something was seriously wrong with the choices that were made by the people in my life. I realized I couldn’t have changed the past and the choices of those around me were not for me to control.
The first time I heard and understood God’s love and grace was my sophomore year in Jesse Jones High School 2002. I had moved from Brooklyn, New York to Houston, Texas with my father and my step family. During lunch, in school one day I was invited to a Bible study. Through persistent friends who didn’t take no for an answer I finally went. With nothing to lose, I went inside a classroom where a geometry teacher was reading the Holy Bible. It wasn’t like I had never been to church, or opened the Bible, because I had, but this time it became so real… the words were more than words…the words came to LIFE for the first time.
I learned that God has given us a gift of life and what we choose to do with our life is our gift to Him. A choice is given to us as human beings to choose eternal life or death.
The transformation of my broken spirit began to take place after I accepted Christ as my personal Lord and Savior, recognizing that His death and His resurrection was done for believers and non-believers to bring True life and Freedom to all human kind.
I began to have strength in my life again. I know longer wanted to commit sucide. I accepted my value and self-worth from God. I realized God’s approval was the only one I needed. I learned that neither people, nor circumstances define me.
We all affect one another and we need to stand together for the Truth. Jesus Christ came down in a human suit to this earth, and humbled himself to pain, persecution, without dignity or regret. He is the bridge to eternal life that brings love, hope and a future. He has opened the Heavenly gates so that we may have a relationship with Him through His sacrifice.
Call out to Him.
"Jesus, I want to know you. I want you to come into my life. Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins so that I could be fully accepted by you. Only you can give me the power to change and become the person you created me to be. Thank you for forgiving me and giving me eternal life with God. I give my life to you. Please do with it as you wish. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen."
Jesus said, "I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in (Revelation 3:20).”