Where do I begin? First of all, I give God all the glory and honor. Every good and perfect gift comes from God and He has given me a lot of gifts. He has blessed me with a family that loves and cares for me and a church family that encourages and excites me when I am around them. Words cannot express the love I have for them and the love they have for me. Where can you find such a love as this? You can search the depths of the oceans, climb the highest mountains, and swim the raging seas and still never find it. Until you meet an awesome man by the name of Jesus Christ and ask Him into your heart, you will never find a love that will fill that emptiness inside you.There is a difference in knowing of God and knowing God. For the most of my life I knew of God but did not know God personally. I was fortunate to be raised in a Christian family, so I kept out of trouble (most of the time) and God kept me safe, even though I didn't know it. I went to church on Sundays, just to go and cause my parents went. I really never listened to the lessons. All that time God was working in my heart. Telling me how much He loved me and that He had a great plan for me.
I accepted Christ into my heart when I was around fourteen years old. Letting God take control of your life is a hard thing to do. I always wanted to do my own things, my own way. I wanted to know Him more but would never spend time with Him. God was waiting for me with open arms to run to Him and talk to Him and build a relationship with Him, but I was too busy doing other things. Things that I thought were more important than Him. I would basically go to school, do my extracurricular activities at school, go hang out with my friends for the rest of the day, come home, eat, and watch television until I went to sleep. I would go to church on Fridays (that was when we used to have our young adult slash youth get together). I would hear all the things God was doing in my friends’ lives and all the things new believers were experiencing. I always wanted to experience what they experienced. God’s joy in their life, His guidance, His peace, and His blessings on their lives daily. But again I never spent time to get to know Him.
To make a long story short, I got to a point where life was pretty hopeless. I wanted to do the right things, but never seem to do them. I would read the Bible, but then stop. I would pray and then stop again. God would not let go of me. He kept telling me not to give up.
About two years ago I finally was able to let God fully take control of my life. And what an awesome experience it has been. I can't express the excitement and joy and hope He has given me. I wake up ready, willing, and wanting great things to happen. His love for me has changed my life forever. I just want those that are reading this to know that God loves you where you are. You don't have to try to be good before you come to God. He will clean you up and clothe you in his best clothing and wash away your sins. He will love you, and keep you safe in His soft and gentle arms. I experience these things everyday. I cannot get enough of Him. So don't give up wherever you are in life. God wants to be there for you as He is there for me. He wants to have that intimate relationship, so that He can fill you up with all the great things He has planned for your life. Just knock on the door it will be opened to you. Ask Him and He will immediately be there for you. I have found that that's the love that has filled me up inside.